So I have been toying with the idea of deleting my blog for about three months now but I guess the fact that I'm writing this post to explain that means that I won't. Probably. But I'm just finding it extremely weird how even though blogging is a hobby, it's still a hobby that can stress you out or put a certain type of pressure on you, most of the time without you even realising it. I think a big part of that is because the main reason I started my blog in the first place was because I wanted to use it as space to showcase my work. And even though I've started focusing on outfit and fashion posts, I initially started with just writing 'articles' and thoughts and musings on Life. I started blogging at University and as much as it is a hobby and I (still) enjoy it, it was always for the intent of showcasing it to future possible employers because that's what I was told constantly. Every time I spoke to lecturers or a career adviser - if you want to work in media, start a blog. Obviously having a blog doesn't mean you'll instantly get an interview but it can help. Even writing this I feel like I'm overthinking it because, to be honest, my blog is minuscule compared to others but that's fine because I never started it with that intention. I didn't even know you could make an actual career out of blogigng to be honest, although I don't think anyone did - it just kind of happened. Blogging is great and you can experiment with any type of blog content you want - fashion, outfit posts, make-up reviews, written posts, lifestyle, photography or videos and probably many more that I'm missing out. You can interact with other bloggers, join blogging chats, meet and become friends with bloggers - it's a very big community. You can be as creative as you want and have 100% control over the creativity. Yet sometimes I feel like that's a double edged sword because you can get stuck taking the same type of photos, or the same outfit posts or writing about the same things. It's great to have a 'style' and yes it's still creative, and it's important that your content stays consistent, but it's still sort of 'stuck in it's ways'. I'm trying to think how best to explain this but I don't think I'm doing a good job ha! Anyway, I decided to take a step back and just think seriously about the direction I wanted to take it. I've done that many times before but this time all I could think about was how it would be easier to just delete it. Yet, there is something about deleting it that would signal that blogging is just another venture that I tried, got bored of and gave it up. I'm not bored of it though.
Hmmm, if any of that made any sense to you then well done because even I'm confused by it ha! But I thought I would share this feeling and see if anyone has ever felt this and has ever been caught in the limbo between 'blogging is a hobby and something I can do when I have the time and it will let me experiment with being creative' and 'blogging will be a great way to showcase my creative talents and I can use it to make me stand out a bit in the job market so I better make sure that my blog is as great as it can be'.